It’s been a long winter, cold, wet, windy
and one filled with dread. Our Danny & Old Patches were having more and more problems and we knew that we would finally
have to have Dr. Randy euthanize them.
I remember the morning Danny was born - it was the
4th of July 1998, he was laying in the grass, and he was the first Cremello I had ever seen. A creamy white foal with blue
eyes - I dropped to my knees and put my hand under his tiny chin lifting his little head and whispered - - oh MY BLUE EYED
BABY - - and I was forever in Love. His registered name was He’s A Doodle Dandy - but he was Our Danny. He was just
the easiest going - sweetest boy and he never changed. When he was 10 months old his right hoof started turning in - and we
learned about DOD - Developemental Orthopedic Disease - where the bone grows quickly but the muscle doesn’t keep up,
which caused his hoof to turn in putting pressure on his ankle joint. I will just say - that over the years that followed
we did everything we could do, to help him with his now crooked leg. Danny grew to be a very big boy - a beautiful white Cremello
with haunting soft blue eyes. He was so kind and gentle to everyone - but he loved Tim! He would follow him around - Tim would
always stop and bury his head in his neck and give him a hug, Danny would drop his head down over his shoulders almost like
he was hugging him back. He did ok for many years - he learned to protect his weak ankle and keep weight off of it when he
trotted or ran. But over time it just got worse - and it became harder for him to get around and we knew it was time to set
him free.
We began to recognize that Danny & Patches were
just growing worse we made the decision to euthanize them together and made arrangements with Dr. Randy. So this morning we
set them free from their pain. It was soo easy - they weren’t afraid - there was no pain or struggle. We buried them
in the corner of the pasture. It was sad and yet we were releived that they weren’t hurting anymore - and we will carry
them in our hearts forever. He was our Danny Boy & she was Ole Patches!
The Day After
The hardest part of having to euthanize Danny &
Patches was coming to terms with making the decision, giving up any hope that there wasn’t anything more you could do
for them. In your heart you know it’s the right thing to do, that you have to love them enough to let them go - set
them free from their pain, before it gets to a crises. I wanted to let them go gently with love. But each day before the appointed
day was harder knowing that it was one day closer to when they would be euthanized. Using that word was how you would muffle
the sharp reality that they would die. Each time I touched them I tried to absorb deep in my memory how they felt- what they
looked like - how beautiful Danny’s pale blue eyes were, giving him a dreamy sweet expression. I brushed Patches beautiful
long party colored tail - white, black & grey and felt how silky smooth it was. Doing these things - hurts - makes you
sad - - pulls you down - - positive thinking doesn’t help - it’s a sad time. A place in time that you just have
to FEEL.
Now it’s the day after. I woke up - they were
the first thought of my day - I felt drained - - kind of like being lost in a dream. I went outside to walk to the barn to
feed - - the early morning was full of the feel of spring on it’s way - the sun bright and warm and a gentle soft cool
breeze seemed to sooth my loss. Life goes on - filled with our precious memories - I wouldn’t have given up one second
of having Danny & Patches in my life to avoid the pain of the past few days - - I’m glad that they were put down
before it was an emergency situation filled with pain, and fear - - I’m glad that they drifted out of this world gently
and for that I feel relief and can let them go and begin to remember all the memories we had with them for all these years
and smile.